Hello. It's been a while. Sorry about that.
I'm house sitting now. It's interesting to say the least. First of all, I've never been alone before. Not like this. At my house, there's always someone home, particularly in the evening. Now, I have no one. I have electric heat in my house. Here, when I turned up the heat I freaked out because there's a furnace. Little things like that.
I like the independence, of coming and going when I please, making all the decisions, etc. I don't like the loneliness. I feel more comfortable downstairs where the tv is than upstairs. When upstairs, I usually have the radio on. Down here, the tv is on. Maybe because it's more closed in. Maybe because I'm more accustomed to tv than radio. Either way, I'm like a dog in that I do like the noise.
The cat is interesting. He likes to talk to me. He also likes to go outside, come in for a few minutes and want to go again. I usually don't do that and he's learning that. He's also learning that I don't like letting him out when I'm asleep or gone (though today he didn't come in before I left for work. He was here when I came back). His mannerisms amuse me.
I don't like the loneliness. That's the big thing. I'm getting used to spending nights alone, but it doesn't mean I like it. I don't think I'm one for living completely alone. I like having that other person with me. Obviously, I can be alone, but I don't think it's something I want to do full time. I think I'm more of a roommate kind of girl.
I also have to take buses more which is odd to me. I'm not used to not being so non-centrally located. Instead of walking 10 minutes to the grocery store, I have to bus 10 minutes. For now. I'm sure I'll find some method that is more feasible I guess.
That's the update for now.
Monday, April 16, 2012
Monday, February 27, 2012
Canada: What the hell?
I know I've been a terrible blogger. But I've been gaming...a lot. And sometimes I just don't know what to write. Though sometimes, good ideas come to me in places like the bus or work and I can't write them down. But this time, this needs to come out.
I don't understand what's wrong with the people in my country. We've elected a leader who was previously found in contempt of parliament. This was the first time in Commonwealth history that this happened. Not only was he allowed to run again, but he won the election again. It's the same as being fired from a job, applying for the vacant position, and getting the job back. How the hell does that work?!
I know some people are saying "well, if he was re-elected, someone must have thought he was doing alright." Well, no. Voter turnout was 61.1%. 39% of eligible voters did not vote, which is just too many. About 40% of people didn't say whether they thought Harper was the best person for the job. People are too apathetic when it comes to politics. People over the world fight for their right to chose who should lead them, and citizens of this country just blow that away. Some say they're vote doesn't matter, but the more people say it, the more important each vote does become. That 40% could have drastically changed the way the election turned out. Hopefully they'll decide to vote once they see what this guy has already done in the less than one year he's been in power and what he continues to do.
First of all, the insane crime bill. What the hell is that? It isn't just the opposition who are saying that, but people all over the world! TEXAS looked at our bill and said "been there, done that, it doesn't work, you'll waste money." The government is ignoring it, pretty much saying "this is OUR country, go away". The crime bill increases sentences and builds more prisons at a time when the crime rate is LOW! Lowest it's been in 40 years. So, why are they spending money on something that we don't need. Maybe we do need a few changes, but not to this extent.
Then there's the whole privacy issue. This government got rid of the long-form census because it was an invasion of privacy. This continues to blow my mind as a market researcher. You NEED this information to find out exactly what's going on in your country. However, allowing the police to look at anyone's internet records WITHOUT a warrant is NOT an invasion of privacy. Sure, they say they'll only do it in extenuating circumstances, but what they say they'll do and what they'll actually do are two different things. If they can look at ANYONE, they will. Why? Because they can. So they can monitor everything everyone does, and probably destroy anyone who is not on their side. Can we say dictatorship? I understand they want to crack down on child porn, but there are better ways than putting everyone's privacy at risk. Like I said, with this law, I might be able to be taken down and taken out because I'm bad-mouthing the government. Called Free Speech people. Look it up. Oh right, the Harper Government probably wants to get rid of that too.
Finally, it has come out about call-centers telling people the wrong places to go on voting day. They reply was that it was a mistake. No. One center doing it for one riding is a mistake. However, it effected 39 ridings. Considering there are 308 in Canada, do the math. 39/308 = 12%! There are all sorts of different stories coming out. Google it because I don't have time to say it all. And what are the Conservatives, the ones in power doing? Bashing the other parties. I'm sorry but if you're being accused in a very serious crime, which this is, wouldn't you demand to prove your innocence? Insist on further investigations? They aren't, because they know exactly what people will find.
There is so much more to discuss but I don't have the time. But, Canada, I implore you, wake up! What the hell is going on in my country? This government is making me ashamed to be Canadian right now. And people are just sitting by while the government continues to lie and enforce their backwards rules on us. We need to stand up for this! This isn't Canada anymore. This is Harperland. Unfortunately, it will be for the next 3 years. Hopefully an investigation into the election fraud will be enough to make people finally see what a slimeball Harper really is and enough with the political apathy. Unless the whole country protests, which I wouldn't mind, honestly.
Until then, it's a long 3 years.
(I know this post may seem biased, but it's suppose to be. I can never support a man like Stephen Harper considering everything he has done and will continue to do. I certainly welcome debate, as well as anything that may prove something here false. However, I have researched while posting and as of now, I'm sure my figures are correct. Again, proving me wrong is how I learn. Bring on any debate.)
I don't understand what's wrong with the people in my country. We've elected a leader who was previously found in contempt of parliament. This was the first time in Commonwealth history that this happened. Not only was he allowed to run again, but he won the election again. It's the same as being fired from a job, applying for the vacant position, and getting the job back. How the hell does that work?!
I know some people are saying "well, if he was re-elected, someone must have thought he was doing alright." Well, no. Voter turnout was 61.1%. 39% of eligible voters did not vote, which is just too many. About 40% of people didn't say whether they thought Harper was the best person for the job. People are too apathetic when it comes to politics. People over the world fight for their right to chose who should lead them, and citizens of this country just blow that away. Some say they're vote doesn't matter, but the more people say it, the more important each vote does become. That 40% could have drastically changed the way the election turned out. Hopefully they'll decide to vote once they see what this guy has already done in the less than one year he's been in power and what he continues to do.
First of all, the insane crime bill. What the hell is that? It isn't just the opposition who are saying that, but people all over the world! TEXAS looked at our bill and said "been there, done that, it doesn't work, you'll waste money." The government is ignoring it, pretty much saying "this is OUR country, go away". The crime bill increases sentences and builds more prisons at a time when the crime rate is LOW! Lowest it's been in 40 years. So, why are they spending money on something that we don't need. Maybe we do need a few changes, but not to this extent.
Then there's the whole privacy issue. This government got rid of the long-form census because it was an invasion of privacy. This continues to blow my mind as a market researcher. You NEED this information to find out exactly what's going on in your country. However, allowing the police to look at anyone's internet records WITHOUT a warrant is NOT an invasion of privacy. Sure, they say they'll only do it in extenuating circumstances, but what they say they'll do and what they'll actually do are two different things. If they can look at ANYONE, they will. Why? Because they can. So they can monitor everything everyone does, and probably destroy anyone who is not on their side. Can we say dictatorship? I understand they want to crack down on child porn, but there are better ways than putting everyone's privacy at risk. Like I said, with this law, I might be able to be taken down and taken out because I'm bad-mouthing the government. Called Free Speech people. Look it up. Oh right, the Harper Government probably wants to get rid of that too.
Finally, it has come out about call-centers telling people the wrong places to go on voting day. They reply was that it was a mistake. No. One center doing it for one riding is a mistake. However, it effected 39 ridings. Considering there are 308 in Canada, do the math. 39/308 = 12%! There are all sorts of different stories coming out. Google it because I don't have time to say it all. And what are the Conservatives, the ones in power doing? Bashing the other parties. I'm sorry but if you're being accused in a very serious crime, which this is, wouldn't you demand to prove your innocence? Insist on further investigations? They aren't, because they know exactly what people will find.
There is so much more to discuss but I don't have the time. But, Canada, I implore you, wake up! What the hell is going on in my country? This government is making me ashamed to be Canadian right now. And people are just sitting by while the government continues to lie and enforce their backwards rules on us. We need to stand up for this! This isn't Canada anymore. This is Harperland. Unfortunately, it will be for the next 3 years. Hopefully an investigation into the election fraud will be enough to make people finally see what a slimeball Harper really is and enough with the political apathy. Unless the whole country protests, which I wouldn't mind, honestly.
Until then, it's a long 3 years.
(I know this post may seem biased, but it's suppose to be. I can never support a man like Stephen Harper considering everything he has done and will continue to do. I certainly welcome debate, as well as anything that may prove something here false. However, I have researched while posting and as of now, I'm sure my figures are correct. Again, proving me wrong is how I learn. Bring on any debate.)
Monday, January 30, 2012
Fairy Tale Lives
Have you ever just been sitting somewhere, like at work, in the cubicle and just think "really? Is this is it?" and wonder when that thing will come along and turn your mundane life into something extraordinary?
I'm thinking about that scene in the pilot episode of Heroes, when Hiro Nakamura is sitting at his desk at work, staring intently at a clock, willing it to do something. Then, it turns back one second, he jumps up, pumps his fist and screams "YATTA!!". I don't know how many times I've stared out the window at work, on a bus, anywhere and wonder what my super power is. Other times, I wonder if some middle aged man with glasses and British accent will come and tell me I'm a slayer. At this point I'd probably raise an eyebrow, point to myself and say "really? Slay vampires? With THIS body? Seriously?!". Then I'd laugh.
Would still be pretty cool though.
Must be my overactive imagination mixed with my longing for a life other than the one I'm living. Well, most of it anyways.
I've been watching Once Upon a Time. It's a good show, about fairy tale characters trapped in the real world, without realizing who they really are. I liked watching Disney movies as a kid, mostly for the music. I didn't consider myself a Cinderella or Snow White. More like a Belle or Ariel, more of a lonely outcast, wanting another life. Not sure who I'm more like. I have a similar, albeit lighter colour hair as Belle, and I like reading. Ariel...well, I hate the water. Can't swim. So I guess I'm more like Belle. Unless, I really am a fairy tale character and since Ariel so desperately wanted to be in another life and I hate being in water that goes over my head...think about it. Plus, it'd explain why I enjoy having my hair dyed red.
Right. Because television is real. /end sarcasm.
Last episode of Once Upon a Time featured a genie. Like all genies, he could grant wishes. His number was three, with the typical being no life, no death, no love, no wishing for more wishes. So what would I wish for? First thing is easy....enough money to pay off the student loan, credit cards, move out, and a little left over to go see more of Europe that I didn't see. Second wish? I have no idea.
I live in a fantasy world, either in my head or online. I think it's time to go back to the world of Azeroth for a little while.
I'm thinking about that scene in the pilot episode of Heroes, when Hiro Nakamura is sitting at his desk at work, staring intently at a clock, willing it to do something. Then, it turns back one second, he jumps up, pumps his fist and screams "YATTA!!". I don't know how many times I've stared out the window at work, on a bus, anywhere and wonder what my super power is. Other times, I wonder if some middle aged man with glasses and British accent will come and tell me I'm a slayer. At this point I'd probably raise an eyebrow, point to myself and say "really? Slay vampires? With THIS body? Seriously?!". Then I'd laugh.
Would still be pretty cool though.
Must be my overactive imagination mixed with my longing for a life other than the one I'm living. Well, most of it anyways.
I've been watching Once Upon a Time. It's a good show, about fairy tale characters trapped in the real world, without realizing who they really are. I liked watching Disney movies as a kid, mostly for the music. I didn't consider myself a Cinderella or Snow White. More like a Belle or Ariel, more of a lonely outcast, wanting another life. Not sure who I'm more like. I have a similar, albeit lighter colour hair as Belle, and I like reading. Ariel...well, I hate the water. Can't swim. So I guess I'm more like Belle. Unless, I really am a fairy tale character and since Ariel so desperately wanted to be in another life and I hate being in water that goes over my head...think about it. Plus, it'd explain why I enjoy having my hair dyed red.
Right. Because television is real. /end sarcasm.
Last episode of Once Upon a Time featured a genie. Like all genies, he could grant wishes. His number was three, with the typical being no life, no death, no love, no wishing for more wishes. So what would I wish for? First thing is easy....enough money to pay off the student loan, credit cards, move out, and a little left over to go see more of Europe that I didn't see. Second wish? I have no idea.
I live in a fantasy world, either in my head or online. I think it's time to go back to the world of Azeroth for a little while.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
The In-Between
The past few weeks, several blog topics have gone through my mind, and I had ever intention of writing them. Of course, I get these great ideas and thoughts when I'm no where near a computer and so I can't write. Today, I have the time, I'm on the computer, and I don't want to write these topics.
Right now, I feel like I'm stuck straddling between what I want and what I have. What I have is fine, but what I want, I can't have. Not right now anyways. Plus, my emotions are playing a huge part in this. If I stay with what I have...well, my emotions would become frustrated. If I leave the situation because I can't have what I want, then I'll be sad because I won't have what I currently have. Compromising between what I want and what I have will probably just complicate things further.
I'm pretty sure I've lost you right now. It makes sense to me, and it might to you if you have an inkling about what this is about.
I know what the logical thing should be. Unfortunately, my head and my heart like to argue, particularly when it comes to this situation. I think the big question is, can I not have what I have? Considering what I was like when I didn't have it, I don't think I can. But how much will it kill me, wanting what I do, but only having what I have?
Right now, I feel like I'm stuck straddling between what I want and what I have. What I have is fine, but what I want, I can't have. Not right now anyways. Plus, my emotions are playing a huge part in this. If I stay with what I have...well, my emotions would become frustrated. If I leave the situation because I can't have what I want, then I'll be sad because I won't have what I currently have. Compromising between what I want and what I have will probably just complicate things further.
I'm pretty sure I've lost you right now. It makes sense to me, and it might to you if you have an inkling about what this is about.
I know what the logical thing should be. Unfortunately, my head and my heart like to argue, particularly when it comes to this situation. I think the big question is, can I not have what I have? Considering what I was like when I didn't have it, I don't think I can. But how much will it kill me, wanting what I do, but only having what I have?
Saturday, December 31, 2011
New Years Thoughts
Well, here we are again, another year down and another to come. So, I guess it's time for one of those look back at the last year.
I started off the year not long back from an amazing four months in the UK. I miss that place. It was fantastic and there was always something to do. We were busy but there was always something on the weekends. And if you got bored, it's only a train ride to London or to the airport where you can take a cheap plane to anywhere else in Europe. Wish it were like that here. So yeah, I was still on a high from that.
I turned 25 this year. That still boggles my mind. As of now, it feels like every age I turn will make me feel old, even though I won't REALLY be old. I just always thought that at 25, things would be different and I'd be a "real" adult. As of now, not yet.
I graduated university! Bachelor of Education in Primary/Elementary. Yay! After seven years of studying I am finally done. It feels great. Now, the hard part: finding a teaching job.
Made a few lifestyle changes, lost 20 lbs and gain and lose about 5 of them during the year, depends on my stress levels of the week.
Early in the year, I met someone and things were over quicker than we started. Somewhat, anyways. The repercussions of that made me a wreck for most of the summer. I hated myself for what happened, for being a fool and for falling for what I can see in retrospect were lies. I have learned that it wasn't entirely my fault and I am not fully to blame.
Then I met someone else and felt an amazing connection and had a great few weeks. It's over for now, but, despite some peoples objections, we're still talking. Why? I don't know. Maybe neither one of us wants to let go. I can't read his mind. Though if I met someone else, I'll seriously do some thinking and see how it goes.
My ex-boyfriend got married. That depressed me a little. Not because it was my ex-boyfriend, but because it was someone else my age that was taking that huge step. Also, at the time, I was dealing with the depression and mess that the first guy I mentioned left me in. Nothing against my ex. If he's happy, so be it. Good for him.
What else happened this year that was big? Nothing else that I can thing of. Oh! One of my best friends got the help she needed. Even if she had to go away to do it, she did it. I'm so proud of her and will continue to support her throughout all this.
All in all, 2011 had some good times, had some bad times. I'm not where exactly where I want to be in my life, but I'm slowly getting there. I'm ready for what 2012 has to throw at me. The big thing I'm hoping for is days in the classroom, either as a sub or something full time. A few other things I want, but I don't want to mention them. Might jinx it.
2012, bring it on!
I started off the year not long back from an amazing four months in the UK. I miss that place. It was fantastic and there was always something to do. We were busy but there was always something on the weekends. And if you got bored, it's only a train ride to London or to the airport where you can take a cheap plane to anywhere else in Europe. Wish it were like that here. So yeah, I was still on a high from that.
I turned 25 this year. That still boggles my mind. As of now, it feels like every age I turn will make me feel old, even though I won't REALLY be old. I just always thought that at 25, things would be different and I'd be a "real" adult. As of now, not yet.
I graduated university! Bachelor of Education in Primary/Elementary. Yay! After seven years of studying I am finally done. It feels great. Now, the hard part: finding a teaching job.
Made a few lifestyle changes, lost 20 lbs and gain and lose about 5 of them during the year, depends on my stress levels of the week.
Early in the year, I met someone and things were over quicker than we started. Somewhat, anyways. The repercussions of that made me a wreck for most of the summer. I hated myself for what happened, for being a fool and for falling for what I can see in retrospect were lies. I have learned that it wasn't entirely my fault and I am not fully to blame.
Then I met someone else and felt an amazing connection and had a great few weeks. It's over for now, but, despite some peoples objections, we're still talking. Why? I don't know. Maybe neither one of us wants to let go. I can't read his mind. Though if I met someone else, I'll seriously do some thinking and see how it goes.
My ex-boyfriend got married. That depressed me a little. Not because it was my ex-boyfriend, but because it was someone else my age that was taking that huge step. Also, at the time, I was dealing with the depression and mess that the first guy I mentioned left me in. Nothing against my ex. If he's happy, so be it. Good for him.
What else happened this year that was big? Nothing else that I can thing of. Oh! One of my best friends got the help she needed. Even if she had to go away to do it, she did it. I'm so proud of her and will continue to support her throughout all this.
All in all, 2011 had some good times, had some bad times. I'm not where exactly where I want to be in my life, but I'm slowly getting there. I'm ready for what 2012 has to throw at me. The big thing I'm hoping for is days in the classroom, either as a sub or something full time. A few other things I want, but I don't want to mention them. Might jinx it.
2012, bring it on!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Christmas Woes
Today, the world seems like it's turned upside down. There are too many things happening that that shouldn't be happening, or not happening that should happen. I have too many friends who are going through crises or not very good situations. Right now, I'm at the point where I wonder if anything will be normal again.
I want to be able to not worry about what I eat, if it'll cause pain later on, either in my stomach or in the heartburn regions. Even if I don't eat, I'm in pain.
I want my friends and their families to get through their situations with everyone healthy and ok.
Last night, I was told something that, while not unexpected, was not something I wanted to hear. This is twice. I don't know what I want with that.
I've had a UTI last week and my anxiety was increasing. It seems to be level again now, but still.
This time of year hasn't been easy in the past few years. It looks like this year will be similar.
Anyone remember what a normal Christmas is like?
I want to be able to not worry about what I eat, if it'll cause pain later on, either in my stomach or in the heartburn regions. Even if I don't eat, I'm in pain.
I want my friends and their families to get through their situations with everyone healthy and ok.
Last night, I was told something that, while not unexpected, was not something I wanted to hear. This is twice. I don't know what I want with that.
I've had a UTI last week and my anxiety was increasing. It seems to be level again now, but still.
This time of year hasn't been easy in the past few years. It looks like this year will be similar.
Anyone remember what a normal Christmas is like?
Thursday, December 8, 2011
A religious military?
I was born and raised Christian. I have no problems with admitting that. I go to church every Sunday and have no problems with that as well. However, I'm also very familiar with other major religions in the world, having read various texts from some of them, taken classes in other religions at university and making friends with people of various religions. I'm proud to admit that I know people of Jewish, Hindu and Muslim backgrounds, and yes, they are all nice, wonderful people. Even after my studying, I have come to incorporate some beliefs from other religions into my own. (What these are and how they all fit together is another story for another blog entry.) Whether or not this still makes me Christian, I don't know.
With that said, hearing something like this makes me facepalm.
His exact words are "there's something wrong in this country when gays can serve openly in the military..."
Wait, what?!
Can someone please explain to me what's wrong with open gays in the military? If someone wanted to serve their country in this way (I wouldn't be able to do it), why can't they? If someone can physically and mentally handle the pressure that this job requires, why does it matter who they're sharing their bed with?
This same goes for marriage. I've heard people say that if you say you can marry whoever you want, then you're allowing for people to marry animals, things, even adults to children. No. That's not what it is. I see no reason for marriage to be defined as a binding between TWO CONSENSUAL ADULTS. Simple as that. You can't work around that and have a man marry a tree or a woman marry a cow. The tree and cow, while they may be adults in their species, can not consent to it.
In his ad, Rick Perry states that children can't celebrate Christmas in the classroom. I, personally, haven't seen this, but I haven't been in an American classroom. As an educator, I have to (or I will once someone hires me) guide my students to succeed in the world. That includes being socially intelligent and knowing how to interact with people. For many people in the world (not so much over on this continent, but definitely in others), their religion is a huge part of who they are. Even knowing what kind of dietary restrictions people have is a help! If they're having a dinner party and inviting a Hindu and a Jew, beef and pork dishes probably aren't going to work! You might also want to make sure that your dinner party doesn't fall on a day like Rosh Hashanah or Diwali or that it starts after sunset if it's Ramadan if you're inviting a Muslim.
So, in a classroom, by all means talk about Christmas. It's part of the culture and, most likely, at least in Newfoundland, the dominant religion of the students. But talk about the other religions as well. Students will learn much more if you actually teach something rather than nothing.
I think Homer Simpson (yes, Homer Simpson) said it best:
"Because in the end, aren't all religions the same? They tell us what to eat, when to pray, that this lump of clay called Man can somehow shape himself to resemble the divine. But we can never attain that perfect grace if we have hatred in our hearts. So let us celebrate our commonalities. Some of us don't eat pork. Some of us don't eat shellfish. But we all eat chicken."
I think that last part says so much more than just what we eat.
And for once, my blog entry has come around more-or-less full circle.
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